Yeah, its been nearly a week, but I’ve been busy being lazy.
Over the weekend, I worked and finally finished my role on Michelle’s Wintec short that again, the actual title eludes me, but I’ll find out again soon enough. Was a fun shoot, back to the old minimal crew, maximus workload approach of fimmaking which I always enjoy immensely, and find utterly tiring at the same time. But don’t get me wrong, its been a really good shoot and I constantly cross my fingers that she’s happy with the results. Half the time I was really unsure about myself, the other half I just kept thinking she’s not throwing anything at you, it must be okay so far… Cause, you know, thats what girls do all the time with me. Throw things. Like clothes…
Anyway, the big surprise of this post to everyone will really be the fact that this is my second day not smoking (well, half of one shouldn’t really count), but yeah, I had a long overdue appointment with the dentist the other day and part of the things I’m to keep up with afterwards include… (a) no smoking, (b) no drinking, (c) no hot drinks and (d) rest.
And you know what? I’ve been doing all of those things. Kinda normal things that most people do. And yet, I’ve been surrounded by tobacco and alcohol and a recently bought batch of coffee that’s not being touched… plus going to sleep and stuff… it’s like my personal hell come to life.
Seriously, how do people function on these ‘no’ principles?!
Well, this weekend will have some long overdue drinking going on, coffee I’ll be touching pretty soon, sleep… yeah, this post isn’t coming too late yet and the smoking… Well so far, its actually not been too bad. I’ve been using nicotine patches which pretty much supply that need, but its just the whole routine of having a cigarette that is making me feel funny at times and jonesig for a smoke, but fuck it, I like smoking, I hate the side effects that come from it, of course, I’m not an idiot, and yeah, my chances of finding a nice girl go down, but its not like I’m looking for anyone anymore, but its a deliciously fun vice to have.
In saying that though, I’m actually gonna see how long I can last with this no smoking thing. I can see myself quitting and really, so far, its not that hard. But I’ve got no real drive yet to quit and no, I’m not waiting for a last minute sign like shitting a lung out on my next bowel movement, but I still enjoy the process and quitting has been on its way, but it can still take its time just a little longer.